jaded

my first white slip. -glares-

new hatred for my ct -.- she gives us one huge stack of gp notes and papers e day before gp cts. how efficient. gah. and she was picking on me during spot check. irritating bitch.

sonya's in rj (: that makes everything slightly better. i miss my cynical girl with her caustic humour and her rolling eyes. hahaha.

feeling jaded.
and alone.

i feel like i'm letting so many ppl down. including myself. i have such ambitious and far-fetched goals, yet i don't seem to be doing much to even go near. gah. i hate this.

i really don't know you anymore. the things you do. the absolute disregard for my feelings and emotions. so much for caring. but i expected this the moment you told me you were attached. i too tired to go bother about you anymore. just stop hurting me. thank goodness i'm over all that nonsense.

i'm never gonna open up again.

i want to run wild with the wind blowing in my hair.